Oh ! Come on ! What world are we living it ? What century are you from ?
When the world is talking about globalisation and the world is at your fingertip, does it matter ?
What matter the most is the sincerity and trust !
Sometimes it just happens ! Sometimes things just click ! That’s what it’s called …. fate !
Otherwise, life is be boring. There is no excitement. So … robot !
And at many times, life is so unpredictable. So, shall we let it be or shall we do something about it ? It doesn’t matter who is right and who is wrong. It doesn’t matter if you are able to get along with someone or not. It doesn’t matter if the person is your past, present or future. What matters most is are you happy ? Are you contemplating with your life ? Your surrounding ? So, you just want a plain simple life ?
Life is short, live it up.
p.s : just make sure it is done reasonable with clear concise thoughts !
My last blog, Thank U for Luving M3, has apparently garnered some interest among you readers.
Some thought of it as sweet …
Some thought of it as romantic …
Some thought of it as soft …
The blog may have perceived :-
that I still thinks of her …
that I couldn’t let her go …
that I was nice …
But that was not my true intention. When I wrote that blog, it was because I ran out of idea ?
You know, at times when you are alone or when you hear some sad but nice songs or even when you are searching for inner soul and peace when your past suddenly flashes in front of you ?
THAT’s was when I decided to write the blog.
There was no specifc reason for writing that blog ! If I could confide to someone close, why not ? Do you think it is possible ? It’s either not interested in listening or no concrete solution / advise. Worse still, what if it may hurt or offended other people’s feeling.
It is not easy to just blur it out to someone else. You wont be certain if that person can be trusted. You wont know for certain how that person will look at you. And we wont know how people would feel after knowing it, arent we ? That’s why, it is easier to blog about it here then to tell others. Cos you wont know who I am ! Or are you sure you know who I am ?
Maybe … just maybe I would tell a little bit more about myself next time …
Anyway, the song, Thank You For Loving Me by Bon Jovi which was included as the last part of my blog was merely a coincidence. I thought that song was nice and meaningful and it was suitable to end my blog . Nothing more, nothing less !
No doubt the blog was full of my thoughts, but hey, it’s just a blog. OK ? Isn’t that what it is suppose to be ? Freedom of speech !
The blog was merely the surface of the whole story. There are many other details which were not included. There are many incidents / occasions that I tend not mention because I prefer to keep the good memories rather than bad ones. What happened to the saying, Let Bygones be Bygones ?
To kill some of you readers’ curiosity, let me give you some rare inside view :-
- Our horoscope / horrorscope doesn’t match
- I cared for her because I was worried for her. Don’t you care for your friends ? So why must it be different just because both of you were a couple before ?
- Even if we were not together, doesn’t mean that we can’t still care for the other right ?
- We argued most of the time. Practically, 4-5 days a week ? Then we will get into cold war for weeks !
- We seldom talk to each other because I am always busy with work
- We probably would have been made shareholders of the telecommunication company with our constant SMS war
- We literally fight and cause much damages done
- It was to a point that I actually ran out of patience and ideas that my parents had to give a helping hand
- And the most crucial point … I know what she is capable of doing when she cant think rasionally and I tend to get fed up / frustrated / give up more than I am concern about her over time !
It may be lame excuses but that’s what I felt. I am who I am.
But wait ! There are more …. !
but … sshhh …. it’s part of my secrets !
There is no harm in Thanking someone for loving you … it would be better then thanking someone for hating you …
Would you let someone you dearly love go if you know that he / she is just not happy with you ?
Would you let someone you dearly love go if you know that he / she is miserable with you ?
Would you let someone you dearly love go if you know that he / she is a mismatch ?
Would you let someone you dearly love go with best wishes and happy for him / her if he / she found someone (instead of you) which he / she truly love ?
These are some thoughts for you to ponder upon …
It doesn’t not form any part of my feelings or any part of my blog therein.
- how we used to correspond … but only for it to eventually fade away
- how we had our first trip together, yours being the first overseas trip … but only for it to be our last
- how you would whisper and say before you leave for work in the morning … but only for you to not realise that I sometimes was awake
- how you would wake up in the middle of night to run to the clinic to get me medication … but only for you to not realise that I appreciate your caring
- how you would get frustrated in waking me up on weekends to do the things we planned … but only for you to not realise that I smiled in my heart knowing that you gotten a lil angry
- how you would stop my head from banging on the wall with your hand … but only if you knew what was going through my mind
- how you would sacrifices your mode of transport when I was without one … but if only you knew I was worried for you and not to trouble you
- how I nearly lost my life and you were the first in my mind to call … but if only you knew that you were the one I could rely on
- how you would just leave with no where to go, no money to spend … but if only you knew I was worried about you even as a friend
- how you would spend on getting things for my family for festive seasons … but only for me to say that’s a bribery
whenever I see your friend’s blog, it had me going …
- reading through the blog to see if there was any mention of you … only to be disappointed that there was no you
- browsing through the photos trying to get a glimpse of you … only to be disappointed that there isn’t much photos of you
- heart pumping, wanting to know how and what have you been up to … only to be disappointed that there is nothing to know of you
- whether you have found someone … only to be disappointed that there is no status on you
If only you knew and understood that it was hard for me to let you go despite our daily difference and the never ending arguments and WWIII …
Yes … I hated you at one point
Yes … I didn’t want to talk to you
Yes … I didn’t want to see you
Yes … I couldn’t stand your sudden outburst and our constant arguments
Yes … I hate each time you acted blur and doing something insane
Yes … I was fed up with your unpredictable actions, not knowing whether you ever thought about your actions
Yes … I hate when you always say It’s Your Life and It’s Up To You !
The first day of work after a week’s break for the lunar year. And what a day it was !
It was havoc ! It was expected that there will be many things to clear and the office server has decided to reject the emails arriving into the mailbox because the quota is FULL ! Dang ! Its not as if the emails were rejected meant lesser work, but it meant more things to do and at a faster speed ! And to apologise for any inconvenience caused. Pui !~!
And the server got cranky as well ! It decided to has the mind of it’s own as if having a Monday blues after a week of rest. The connection was bad. Suddenly it was connected then off it goes again. This complicate the matters as some emails were urgently need to be addressed.
Plus the fact that the month end filing was approaching, the client being fussy about some minor errors and yet was still gonna be on leave. Sigh .. what a sight. So many urgent folders to attend.
But what got me annoyed and frustrated was not until I found out that a crucial point which we missed out in the list of queries to be asked. And this was pointed out with a client !
It can be a minor matter of informing the clients about it. But, we are talking about 200 clients here ! Apart from that, it has been emphasized that all pointers are to be checked thoroughly but yet again, oopss .. sorry, overlooked ! Come on ! I know I am partly to be blamed for not scrutinizing it but you cant be expecting me to look into everything in detailed right ? Then might as well me doing it. And the work done was by two of the more senior people on the team ! So, it was really disappointing !
You cant be expecting that I send an update response to all the clients saying .. “oopss .. sorry for overlook” right ? It is such an embarassment and reputation would be gone. I meant, clients are pending for you for updates and yet you made a mistake on that … What if it cause us to lose that account ? That will be a big trouble having seen and reminded that we cant afford to lose the account.
This time around, made sure that they really got it from me. It was tougher and harsher this time around. And the juniors were made known. I hold them responsible and would not concur to their proposed remedy action. It is up to them and yet being the third day today, they dont seems to understand simple language that they are responsible and I would not agree or concur to their action. Let is be a lesson to them … cant let them always continue being that way … just like Britney’s made famous song, Oopss I did it again ! can i ?
Nevertheless, being the team lead, I have no choice but to hold responsible for it. Sigh …
Looks like the next two months would be the same again as previous years. Thought that it is well improved and we are just being to bear fruits for the efforts we have made for the past year. Thought that this year will be a better year after going through a disasterous filing year 2009 which I vowed not to repeat again.
